Calling for Vanished Faces I

If then, I meet You along the way Where the laurel trees surround us on every side If then, in a small place, I stand alone And turn my head, and You smile there If then, I reach out and touch Your Form Where all Your silences and Your chaos meets Where everything joins and parts If I may once clutch Your Heart And pull its beauty to my face (There the bloodfall falls, redrivecracks) Behind me lies blackmothermountain The goats wheel round: great sign of lust How much I wanted you And oh Christ, how much more I want You now The great pain, the great misery To look and look To look and look and look And look And find Nihil --- Calling for Vanished Faces I - Current 93