britannia mills

I'm not the person that I was then But the ache still tries to haunt me The battles fought inside my head And the demons that would taunt me I'll look my fears straight in the eyes And say I'm not afraid But they'll come back for me someday Like child's play There's not a single thing I miss But you were dangerously alluring Preying on my darkness Your eyes did all the talking I didn't think I was alone 'Til I was miles away from home With a bracelet still tied to my wrist A fight just to exist I still feel the pain But I feel it in new ways I'm not the person that I was then But the ache still tries to haunt me The battles fought inside my head And the demons that would taunt me I'll look my fears straight in the eyes And say I'm not afraid But they'll come back for me someday Like child's play I know what it's like To question everyone in your life A dull depression, a strange obsession Are they insane, or am I? Some days I wonder what it's like to die To leave it all behind But if you pass through hell Why would you choose to stay there? This devil on your shoulder Is a weight you can't bear I still feel the pain But I feel it in new ways I'm not the person that I was then But the ache still tries to haunt me The battles fought inside my head And the demons that would taunt me I'll look my fears straight in the eyes And say I'm not afraid But they'll come back for me someday Like child's play They'll come back for me someday I'll force myself to stay awake 'Cause if I stop myself from dreaming They will have no dreams to take Slept alone in a hospital bed You asked me where I'd want to be I could've seen you in that moment You should've been right there with me Throwing up in the bathroom Hit me with the bad news Tell me that you're done And I never should've had you I still feel the pain I feel it always You were coming back for round two Kick me when I'm down You wished that I was dead Should've known that you were bad news I still feel the pain I feel it always Throwing up in the bathroom Hit me with the bad news Tell me that you're done And I never should've had you I still feel the pain I feel it always --- britannia mills - Downcast