Never After

Alive; or so for now, it seems Arrived; my non-somatic dreams Belief Despicable, applicable A failing nonsense I abhor For every time it's come to knock upon my door I retreat Lock the doors and draw the blinds I'll keep it here with me inside And I know you know that it's not enough And you know I know that I'll never be enough Will you find me in never Find me in never after Find me in nothing? When left to my own devices, I will withdraw from anything and everything Expecting death is the next knock on my door I retreat Trapped in a hell of my design, I can't help sinking further into it, once again without hope Will you paint me a picture Where the sky is still blue? Will you show me a fixture Where the happy ending is still true? Will you paint me a picture Where the sky is still blue? Will you find me in never after?