Post-Boredom

I did a terrible thing And somebody should do something about it I'm haunted by an eternal return And I never should have allowed it I broke my own heart I'm trying to forgive myself But if it gets too close I gotta kill it I'm gonna need your help My annihilation, my annihilation, my annihilation My annihilation kicked off post-boredom Yeah I don't want be a better liar Don't want to make you think That what you get is what you see just because you want it All this muddy water ain't deep I broke my own heart I'm trying to convince myself That I can suffer if I want, motherfucker Just put me back on your shelf My annihilation, my annihilation, my annihilation My annihilation started before I did My annihilation, my annihilation, my annihilation My annihilation ended before we did I gave you nothing You want more? You'll get more nothing Come on and give a big man a little thrill Come on and give a sick man his poison pill I don't want no harm I've done it all wrong for so long it feels okay From up here the parties and funerals, they look the same When every morning after is the same day Every morning after is the same day I want one more last chance, last chance Make me another mistake All I can take is everything that I have given away I walked in with one foot out the door You knew that I was not gonna stay I broke my own heart I'm trying to forgive myself I don't give a goddamn about the magic Just put me under your spell My annihilation, my annihilation, my annihilation My annihilation kicked off post-boredom I gave you nothing You want more? You'll get more