I should hate you

Last night, I spiralled alone in the kitchen Making pretend that the furniture listened Wasn't the best of momentum conditions, but I tried Thinkin' of you without any forgiveness Because I was the one who would stay up and call you And I'd drive to your house for the shit that you went through And I wasted my breath when I tried to console you, didn't I? 'Cause we didn't happen the way we were supposed to I know that I should hate you I know that I should hate you Pulled the knife off my bag, it was right where you left it But it's laying kinda perfect, I'll give you the credit And just drink something strong to try to forget, but it wasn't right No, you're not even here, but you're doin' my head in I know that I should hate you I know that I should hate you I know that I should hate you Ooh, ooh I should hate you, I feel stupid Like I almost crashed my car Drivin' home to talk about you At my table in the dark All I ever think about is Where the hell you even are And I swear to God I'd kill you If I loved you less hard After all of this time, I still get disappointed Bet you're doing alright and you don't even know it I would stall 'cause of you that my standards are broken in my mind I would bend back to you if you left the door open I know that I should hate you I know that I should hate you I know that I should hate you Ooh, ooh I know that I should hate you I know that I should hate you I know that I should hate you Ooh, ooh --- I should hate you - Gracie Abrams