A Million Exploding Suns

I've forgotten my name I'm sick and weak and fresh from sleep I crawl from a crooked bed With dirty feet and shaky hands The numbers on the clock read 1140 am I've got time to clean myself Then sell my soul again When I sleep I dream I dream I am awake Or was it when awake I dream I am asleep I work I shit I eat I sleep I'm inspected by the number seven This can't be my life No this isn't me I don't know what's beset this change I barely recognise my own face In my mind something's just not right But in my heart I'm bathed in golden liiiight Bathed in golden light Bathed in a golden light My eyelids still heavy, my pulse still faint I'm puzzle pieces, my memory's strained I feel strength swell, a day dream Is shaking under this duality my pulse still faint I hear a strange voice but don't know what it's saying And in this moment Second stop and I burst with clarity A wealth of love and hate, gone blank For I finally remember my fucking name I eat rocks And I breathe wind I've been around the world And back again I've lost the static And the gray is gone I've got the power of A million exploding suns I am consumed by my might Blinded in light as I would be in night This void is holding me tight It doesn't feel right When will I ever break free Within or without I'm chained by the dream The void is holding me tight It doesn't feel right When will I ever break free Within or without I'm chained by the dream The void and light are both me It doesn't feel right Bright lights flood my eyes It's true Now I realise The perilous truth Of a perilous life By my own device The strength of my high Is the strength of my low Unless there's no me They both They both explode