This is my beginning yeah this is my genesis
You claim that you are a day one but you're only here for benefits
And it's evident
This music really puts me in my element
I'm gonna keep rapping until my pockets fat just like an elephant
You're seeing my potential as you're seeing my development
They see me getting bigger now they wanna get benevolent
They all be mad seeing that my talent is just heaven sent
And they see a young rapper like me and they get petulant
And lately I'm thinking
I live what I'm spitting
I'm only getting started no I don't do no quitting
You be barking like a dog but you soft like a kitten
Ball like I'm back in '89 I'm a Piston
So many bars you can get locked up in prison
Going to London live a sweet life no Tipton
Half of y'all rappers life stay scripted
I'm balling like Jordan I don't need a pippin
All of you are funny and hate for no reason
Wanna hit me up but change up like the seasons
I am so blessed and I'm not even sneezing
She said, do you love me and I said that there's no cohesion
I had, All the snakes around me like the garden of eden
I found all the snakes and you know that I did a deletion
I ain't ever fumbled the bag only get completions
I've been balling out MVP of my season
Now you wanna come around and act like we okay
Imma move out the way dodge the fake like Olay
They see my numbers getting bigger they be like no way
I be balling like the Marlins RIP to Jose
No way
And the way I'm rapping need a tour date
And I put this money in my pocket now they're saying that I gained more weight
They used to say I won't make it and now they're screaming you're great
There ain't no competition I dropped thirty when you scored eight
This is the worlds end
This is the revelation
I'll show you my dark side
With no hesitation
Different on the inside
My music's a demonstration
Time to open your eyes
Mind and body separation
I'm so ugly
On the inside and out
God I'm filled with all of this doubt
He ignores me while he looks down
But I've been forced shut
I can't make a sound
Please help me 'cause I'm dying and alone
I keep hurting myself just to fill this hole
Got PTSD might lose my soul
Might give it up today I'm feeling bold
Who knew this world could be so cold
At this point I don't wanna grow old
This world is blind, we believe what we're told
We keep buying in to everything we are sold
The world keeps attacking and I'm ready to fold
My life is slipping, I need to grab a hold
I need to hold tight before I trip
I need to snap out and catch a grip
I'm just so tired of feeling sick
But my problems stack and They're getting big
I'm bruised up taken many falls and hits
Life's a drug, and it's all bad trips
I just wanna know what's causing this
I'm so close and I'm about to quit
Now let's walk down memory lane
We'll take a look at my past, you'll know why I'm insane
At thirteen, I stopped feeling okay
At fourteen, my happiness began to fade
At fifteen, I saw that everybody was fake
At sixteen, I was bullied everyday
At seventeen, started pushing everybody away
I'm finally eighteen, don't know much more I can take
I just keep tryna fight, but can't fight the hate
I try to stay strong, but I'm ready to break
I'm ready to cave
I'm ready to melt
I try to live my life with terrible health
And mentally, I am not doing well
So I took my emotions and put them high on the shelf
I never feel safe
Not even with myself
I'm only surviving
Don't feel like I'm living
Depressed and anxious, wanna end it in an instant
I try to love, but I feel too distant
I try to talk to you, but you ain't even listening
I keep trying to relate, but I am too different
And I really think the world is boutta end
And it's sad to say
I haven't made friends
I'm scared I won't be saved
That I'll be tortured next
And if I die soon
I won't get my rest
I just wanna be saved
And forgiven of sin
But we can't avoid hell
And we can't avoid him
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World's END - N@te & JO SEPH
