Everything That Isn't Me

I could have been a better brother I could have been a better son I'm sorry for the pain I caused you And all the worries that I gave you, mom Every time there was a riot I couldn't ever stay at home I had to go and join the fire You and dad said no, but I had to go You were still the best of mothers And now I know the fear you felt for me You told me to stay off the streets 'cause You didn't like me out there selling weed I don't regret the things I've done They made me what I am, you see I can't apologize forever For everything that isn't me I could have been a better brother I could have been a better friend I hope you know how much I love you And if you don't, I really understand I used to be so bloody selfish I tried to make it to the top, you see The only thing I didn't get is You've always given me the help I need I should have been a better brother It's easy now to see it clear I'm sorry that I hurt you all and I'm sorry that I caused you all so many tears I could apologize forever For everything I couldn't be I can't apologize forever For everything that isn't me I could have been a better lover I could have been a better man I'm sorry that I work so much and The fact that I never really have a plan I'm sorry, oh, I'm so sorry That it's so hard to say this word And even with all the things we've been through Sometimes I think that I will never learn I could have been a better lover I could have been a better man I'm gonna be a better father Hell, I'm doing everything I can And I will live with this forever With everything I couldn't be I can't apologize forever For everything that isn't me I could have been a better brother I could have been a better son I could have been a better lover But in the end, I'm your only one --- Everything That Isn't Me - Lukas Graham