Not OK

It's not like I chose this I was not given a choice In a room full of stories Mine was just another voice How does she do it? Without making any sound? I cry after hours And scream when no one is around Here comes a battle Here's another uphill climb So strap on some courage You should be well prepared this time Just because I'm still standing Just because I have survived Doesn't mean I don't get scared Or wanna give up every time 'Cause I don't feel like being strong today I wanna fall apart sometimes I wanna break Next time they ask I'll tell the truth and I'll say That I'm not ok That I'm not ok I don't feel like carrying all this weight Or being broken around those who can't relate Next time they ask I'll tell the truth and I'll say That I'm not ok That I'm not After he left us After everything went dark She's all that matters She's my only little spark It's not like I don't want to Stay in bed, never leave home But if I don't do it Chances are it won't get done 'Cause I don't feel like being strong today I wanna fall apart sometimes I wanna break Next time they ask I'll tell the truth and I'll say That I'm not ok That I'm not ok I don't feel like carrying all this weight Or being broken around those who can't relate Next time they ask I'll tell the truth and I'll say That I'm not ok That I'm not ok Yeah, I'm not ok That I'm not ok That I'm not ok (I'm not ok) Ohh I'm not ok I'm not ok Ohh, ohh God gives his toughest Battles to the strongest ones That he built out of courage In the image of his only son And I am a soldier I can take the whole world on So watch as I fight this And give your praise once I have won