I Wanna Start My Life Again

I'm packing my stuff cuh I'm driving away Had a full course meal and it started with love And I really thought that was okay But fuck my dessert cus' it ended with pain I get in ma car, might take out the breaks And now that I left... they want me to stay But now its too late cuh I'm changing my name Might move to the states and edit my face Cuh I wanna go back to "I felt no pain" I wanna start my life again I say that I'm fine, got a fucked up life I just wanna start it again Rewrite my wrongs and fix mistakes Wanna start my life again I don't wanna die but I want a new life I just wanna start it again I wish that I spoke way more in school And I wish that I made some friends But I didn't fit in, had a childlike mind But I weren't childish so I stayed in my lane Had nothing to say, didn't waste my words Now I get paid every time that I talk And I rap for ones that's been hurt too I'm in need of a nurse, left my heart on a verse And I wish that I passed my courses I dropped out of colly, said my music important I didn't give a fuck what my family think Cus' I know deep down that they didn't support it It's dark outside if I crash right now Then I know the whole world will be mourning Cus' I made me a name but I still let my family down And it's fucking exhausting And to the ex that I left, my very first love You know it's my biggest regret But I can't comprehend cus' it fucks with my head That I was hurting your soul and I left you upset If I could go back, yeah I'd give you my best So I made you a song, I don't know if you care 14th of dece, is the day that we met I just wanna rest, start my life all again, fuck! I'm packing my stuff cuh I'm driving away Had a full course meal and it started with love And I really thought that was okay But fuck my dessert cus' it ended with pain I get in ma car, might take out the breaks And now that I left... they want me to stay But now its too late cuh I'm changing my name Might move to the states and edit my face Cuh I wanna go back to "I felt no pain" I wanna start my life again I say that I'm fine, got a fucked up life I just wanna start it again Rewrite my wrongs and fix mistakes Wanna start my life again I don't wanna die but I want a new life I just wanna start it again