It Hurts Until It Doesn't

it hurts until it doesn’t i felt alive for a little while but when i died i had the time to notice i was crushed by the weight of my own ego but never honest enough to say it i felt your love for a little while but never had the guts to give myself up i said that i could be just what you wanted as if i could ever keep a promise you have eyes in every room but you won't see me walk away once i was more than just a song to play on your haunted tape i don't want to be away could have sworn i heard you laughing in the doorway i don't like myself when i'm awake i don't like myself when i'm awake