feelings are fatal

I'm happy for you I'm smiling for you I'd do anything For you, for you It's always for you And never for me And I need it to stop So let me tell you, please I'm always sad And I'm always lonely But I can't tell you That I'm breaking slowly Closed doors Locked in, no keys Keeping my feelings hidden There is no ease I need it to stop And I want to be able To open up but My feelings are fatal My feelings are fatal How many times must I keep it inside? I need to let go and I swear that I've tried But opening up means trusting others And that's just too much, I don't want to bother So I'll keep it inside and I'll bury it deep I know it's not healthy, but you won't hear a peep Though I'm always sad and I'm always lonely I could never tell you that I'm breaking slowly Closed doors Locked in, no keys Keeping my feelings hidden There is no ease I need it to stop And I want to be able To open up but My feelings are fatal, oh, oh, oh My feelings are fatal, oh, oh, oh My feelings are fatal, oh, oh, oh