A Living Nightmare

I don't know if hell is certain But I pray that you'll be burning You treated me just like a vermin Fuck you for this lifelong burden I can't succeed Without remembering what you did to me I can't forgive You should've never fucking let me live I wish that I could forgive you But I feel it still I wish that I could forget you But I never will To tell the truth I just want my youth back The life that was ripped from me Looking back it should've killed me (Killed me) I'd trade it all Just to have a normal life You know you ruined me completely (Completely) A living nightmare You still keep me up at night Your morality was on the fence Your depravity at my expense Your sick sadistic mind exposed All you are is all I loathe I wish that I could forgive you But I feel it still I wish that I could forget you But I never will To tell the truth I just want my youth back The life that was ripped from me As you played God Tried to warp my mind Drained me of love And left my innocence behind How do you like me now I'm still alive somehow And I can tell you this Nothing haunts me Lambs to the slaughter You fucking monster You have no right to get to live your life Not an ounce of mercy You cursed me Did me so dirty You left me feeling so unworthy You made me feel cheap Burned me inside my bed And now my life is bleak Because your threats ring in my head Let me tell you It takes one to know one You're by yourself There's nowhere left for you to run I wish that I could forgive you But you remind me Some scars are the truth Accused and abused You owned the room I'll take care of me Instead of you I wish that I could forgive you But I feel it still I wish that I could forget you But I never will To tell the truth I just want my youth back The life that was ripped from me I wish that I could forgive you But I feel it still I wish that I could forget you But I never will To tell the truth I just want my youth back The life that was ripped from me --- A Living Nightmare - Outline In Color