HowDoILook

It took a while but I don't mind How does my body look in this light? It took a while but I don't mind How do I look now, how do I look now? I've stopped my thoughts, It's the only way of keeping sensations from creeping up on me And crushing whatever's keeping me going I just can't let my mind wander It always takes a dodgy street and i get nervous And just retreat But this is slowly killing me This is slowly destroying me This is slowly decaying me But i am home now I can let myself fall Maybe i'd expected more or it was just my lack of vision But after years this 4x4 just wasn't as i had imagined And your head is on my pen, is on my bed It's hard to right your wrongs but you won't admit your flaws And oh god they're beautiful But this is slowly killing me This is slowly destroying me This is slowly decaying me But i am home now I can let myself fall