Paid In Full

I was nowhere near ready when all it ended So I hoped we could find a new day, cannot live without you You gave me the chance, time and again in vain Now my feelings for you Every tear, every smile, paid in full Wrecked the chain, but no longer can I take the pain It's hard for me to love myself right now I waited, hated, blamed it all on you Needed to be strong, yet I was always too weak So again only blamed myself for this state we are in I will take what you have for me now, it's not too late Did you change? I did too Love can grow from the last grain It's hard for me to love myself right now I waited, hated, blamed it all on you I need you less and less every day Fix this moral decay Yet I've grown to love you even more My fault that you then turned another cheek You mouth the words, you're not ready to speak You're scared of me, although I never had a clue That I'd become so much stronger than you I will take what you have for me now if it's not too late If you like I will leave, I will not miss the last train again It's hard for me to love myself right now I waited, hated, blamed it all on you It's hard for me to love your face right now I'm waiting, hating, needing, being me I need you less and less And every day leads us farther away From that moment It's hard for me to hate myself right now Finally I'm understanding me One day we may have whole new me's and you's But first I need to learn to love me too