Crushed

So I walked alone to reclaim what both of us had felt I'm calling out to all anons to help me help myself When I'm curious The signals are a mess when I reach out to you It's sad I'm wishful in the way that I wish you'd help find my way back When I wander I am fearless I'm still near you Can you hear this It's how I can put my hand on your back in our bed and I still feel alone Sometimes when you're home I don't think that you're really home Celebration Am I worth it I call out to you With no purpose I just want you With no reason To deserve it It's constantly bad I feel constantly judged I feel you and I feel crushed And put on the spot You do and you don't Your eyes say both yes and no I thought you'd respond if my entire self was you I wake up enraged and throw my phone across the room Stability I don't have it I just struggle with my stresses And I'm social Contradicting what is normal How I'm feeling