making the bed

Want it so I got it, did it so it's done Another thing I ruined, I used to do for fun Another piece of plastic, I could just throw away Another conversation with nothing good to say I thought it so I said it, took it 'cause I can Another day pretendin' I'm older than I am Another perfect moment that doesn't feel like mine Another thing I forced to be a sign Well, sometimes I feel like I don't wanna be where I am Gettin' drunk at a club with my fair-weather friends Push away all the people who know me the best But it's me who's been makin' the bed I'm so tired of bein' the girl that I am Every good thing has turned into something I dread And I'm playin' the victim so well in my head But it's me who's been makin' the bed Me who's been makin' the bed Pull the sheets over my head Makin' the bed And every night I wake up from this one recurrin' dream I'm drivin' through the city and the breaks go out on me I can't stop at the red light, I can't swerve off the road I read somewhere it's 'cause my life feels so out of control And I tell someone I love them, just as a distraction They tell me that they love me, like I'm some tourist attraction They're changin' my machinery and I just let it happen I got the things I wanted, it's just not what I imagined Well, sometimes I feel like I don't wanna be where I am Gettin' drunk at a club with my fair-weather friends Push away all the people who know me the best But it's me who's been makin' the bed I'm so tired of bein' the girl that I am Every good thing has turned into something I dread And I'm playin' the victim so well in my head But it's me who's been makin' the bed Me who's been makin' the bed Pull the sheets over my head Makin' the bed Sometimes I feel like I don't wanna be where I am Countin' all of the beautiful things I regret But it's me who's been makin' the bed Me who's been makin' the bed Pull the sheets over my head Makin' the bed Oh-oh --- making the bed - Olivia Rodrigo