Difficult

My double vision Is only amplifying everything he isn't 'Til I feel less attached and bored to death, but listen It's no one's fault, it's just my terrible condition And I've been thinkin' if I move out this year I'll feel my parents slipping Away and also I'm just scared of that commitment I really think sometimes there's something that I'm missing Oh, I know spiraling is miserable I should probably go back home Why does that feel difficult, difficult? Oh, I hope I wake up invisible I'd be someone no one knows I guess I'm just difficult To name this feeling Would take a hundred thousand years, some kind of grieving But over what I never had, so I've been speaking To my therapist, I call her every weekend I meant to tell you How I've hated how we left things when it fell through 'Cause you were everything to me, where did you run to? Was it something that I said that colored you blue? Oh, I know spiraling is miserable I should probably go back home Why does that feel difficult, difficult? Oh, I hope I wake up invisible I'd be someone no one knows I guess I'm just difficult, difficult Difficult (I) Difficult I've been drinking And staying up too late reliving bad decisions I thought eventually my ranting here would fix it I really think sometimes there's something that I'm missing Oh, I know spiraling is miserable I should probably go back home Why does that feel difficult, difficult? Oh, I hope I wake up invisible I'd be someone no one knows I guess I'm just difficult, difficult Oh, I know spiraling is miserable I should probably go back home Why does that feel difficult, difficult? Oh, I hope I wake up invisible I'd be someone no one knows I guess I'm just difficult, difficult --- Difficult - Gracie Abrams